Today for the first time in a long while happy everything is fine for so long I have been depressed hated myself wallowed in self-pity kept whining that no one likes me now I feel again some kind of hope some kind of joy today I found, after a long time the road to Fantasy as a child I visited there often but then I grew up lost the road today I was there the whole day it was hard to come out to the ordinary world I want to go back soon I will go too there, where you have kind dragons a stout Indian boy a beautiful princess who is ill and in the midst of all this a little plump boy in spectacles Bastian Balthasar Bux today I am happy the first snow fell everything was beautiful and white if I could have I would have danced in the snow made snow angels built a snowman why does one have to become an adult? if you had seen me what would you have done? stood next to me? laughing at your silly little goblin girl? hugged me? today I am happy I am in love with you